October 27, 2010

What's Going On

So I have been having a few issues, to say the least, lately.

There is no harm in trying to stay busy, but the problem is overwhelming myself.
And when I seemed to finally hit a balance... I faltered again.

I had brownies organized, everything with school going steady, work almost every day. I have been trying to keep up on my blogs and vlogs but yet... lost track of my Etsy. I had started this custom order and it seemed like every time I got somewhere with this order something shook. So it has been on going since August, finally had started etching and tragedy strikes.

Thursday night one of my closest friends from Highschool was in a car accident that she was not destined to outlive. Her daughter, almost three years, died instantly and she was put into a coma. After they declared her brain dead they made sure everything was ok for transplant and then they let her go.

Despite my discomfort and sadness I still feel like I have let someone down.
It took all the strength I had to still do the Halloween Party for my brownies, and seeing all those little girls in their costumes just made me break down. Had to excuse myself, take off if you will.

There is no one really here where I am. I mean physically. No one where I live. I have Mr. A Squared but he didn't know her... he hasn't felt the loss of a friend. I feel lost for words, all the things I should have said and didn't. I know you are not suppose to feel that way or think about those things but on days like these I just can't help it.

I just miss her, and I hope she knows how important she was to all of us. A role model for living life to its fullest and never being down.


October 12, 2010

Im not Dead!

I promise that I am still here and kicking around.

just been a long little while with everything.

I am being published in an anthology which is exciting.
Brownies started, I applied for a hefty scholarship, I have more to mail off because email is never acceptable, I need to finish my book, so many things!!!!!

Finish my book... get half way in my book. This is first priority.
I need to challenge myself to write a day a day. Since my book is written in days, and each day has a letter and an entry I think a day a day should be easy enough. Only 6 or so pages each day. =)

Speaking of which I am going to go write.

I just got back from a wonderful traditional Thanksgiving in Edmonton, and while I was there I had the privilege of meeting another upcoming author by the name of Dennis Gilmour. His first novel 'The Unveiling' has just been distributed into stores such as Coles and Chapters and so he was there doing a book signing and I got a chance to talk to him a bit about everything. His book is a sci-fi, which admittedly I do not read at all but I picked it up anyways. I read the back and it seems interesting enough and I got him to sign it! I am looking forward to trying it out.

I had a book idea once that was sci fi but I decided that since I don't read sci-fi it probably would not be that great of a book as I have no experience. Non-fiction and Fantasy on the other hand... let me take a crack at it.

Speaking of which, my novel from last year's Nanowrimo, entitled 'The Aura Seers,' also seems to have hit a bit of a rut. But at 30,000 words I could find a way to wrap it up =) and aim it towards a younger and shorter book audience.

Ok. I am off to bed as my back is starting to bug me.

Best Wishes!

August 05, 2010

Only 1000?

I think I can do 1000
the question is on which account…
I have a few different things going on at the moment and to be honest getting even half this number on any of them would be awesome!

How to get 100 subscribers on YouTube

"Perseverance is your friend!"

How I did it:

  1. Create an account

  2. Upload videos

  3. Browse around

  4. Meet people

  5. Find people to sub to

  6. Make video responses

  7. Take part in a Collab

  8. Et Voila!

Lessons & tips: Video Responses and Comments are your best friends! By taking part you get your name out there and people click on your channel, sometimes that is all it takes.

It took me 2 months.

It made me Stoked

March 29, 2010

Pet Peeves

There are a plethora of things that I cannot seem to stand in the slightest
And these things always tend to happen around each other.

I will have one thing happen and then later... an hour or whatever... another will occur. They come in groups and maneuver around each other.
For instance... I have always been told that old men in hats were found in a number of studies to be the worst drivers in the world. So now it seems that every time I get stuck behind someone who doesn't put on a turn signal it is an old man in a hat.

I dont know why the concept of not turning on a turn signal bothers me but I do know that it pisses me off greatly. Its like "HELLO! Do you know care about the people around you? You just cut me off and then got mad at me for not letting you in? Hmm wonder why perhaps because you couldnt be bothered to signal and I didnt know you wanted in. Its not my bad that you suck at driving."

January 14, 2010

English Class

There is a particular fear of mine,
that you might know,
of saying things and dreading them after.

It happens on occasion,
like at my best friends wedding,
when you think it will work,
and it doesnt.

Sometimes you think that no one will notice,
and others it sticks,

In this particular case I feel like I have officially singled myself out as
the youngest
most immature
in the room.

I know that that isnt necessarily true.
but at the same time it is that feeling that is present more than anything

It has significant following and builds
fluently through the embracement of the lac of mainstream.

I am asked to write about an article, and about a school.
My school experience and it seems as though the only ones I could write about
is highschool, where it seems as though the idea of writing or even mentioning high school
in this class is vito.
Which is ironic because this class is about stepping outside the traditional bylaws of education.
Oppression of the Pedagogy by Paolo Friere.
Pushing out ward and questioning why there are such boxes or concrete concepts of what we should or should not do.

  • A- Alex just said that he was a bit younger then her but he felt the same
  • and I yelled ouch, not thinking, and rebekah hit me, Embrassed slightly
  • Other - Hi rebecca
  • A - I feel more socially awkward and self-conscious everytime I enter this class
  • OTher - Why's that
  • A - my self confidence diminishes. I just feel like I do not know as much as I should. I shouldnt have said anything an dI did. another agist mistake
  • OTher - I'm probably not going to do many of the readings. I hardly have time
  • A - Thats not what I mean. I mean that I have less experience than the seasoned people in this room the ones who have had more experience with Jake and with Engl
  • Other - You've had a lot of exp with Jake haven't you
  • A - I dont know. My shell is cracking. but whatever. I dont mind being the nerd at the back of the class
  • Other - Your shell is cracking? Jeeze amy, a couple more lines and you've got quite the poetic piece there.
  • A - Im emotionally detached. You should know that by now. Perhaps not. No one really knows just Amy. But never the less, the words are bitter and dramatic
I feel as if I am in high school again.
Sitting near the end.
I just write the way I write... being put on the spot frightens me.